Good Morning, my world!
Yesterday for the first time in my life, I went to fitness centre and did what I should do there. It is my last way to get proportional weight. I have already eaten ‘jamu’, weight gainer medicine, I have already eaten food totally much, I have eaten raw egg mixed with honey and ginger, I have ever eaten many avocados for one month every day. I have done everything except this way. And I’ve just realized that nothing is instant. What I’ve done is just fool thing that will never succeed.
Actually I have scoliosis. My back really hurt when I am out of energy or exhausted. Now I even feel it. My right back really hurt. I think it is because fitness I did yesterday. Sometimes I am totally sad. Why was I born this way?? Why do I have to do much struggle just to have what the others have. Sometimes I just feel so blue. Gratitude never leaves me, though. Alloh does what is supposed to happen in a purpose. To make me much stronger as time goes by.
It is okay to feel this pain. It is okay to struggle for the sake of myself, for my satisfaction. Nothing has to be regretted. Regretting chances nothing, even my back will never straight as it was. Regretting will change my body as good as SNSD girls have. But the struggle can. That’s what I surely believe.
Pain I enjoy now will be repaid someday.
As long as I have time and possibility, I will do what I have to do to get what I deserve to get.
See?? gaining the weight is as difficult as reducing it,isn’t it??
Just keep your spirit up and let’s step forward to catch it! ß the affirmation I try to absorb.:D