08.08.2013

Yuhuuu...setelah saya menonton drama Korea, akhirnya saya bisa menulis ini..Kisahnya berdasarkan saya yang tonton. Oke sip.

Everything is gonna be alright, I will be away soon..

I must be away so soon unless I am just like running on a treadmill..

I have been running from sun rises until it disappears.

I am trying so hard, but then if I am still staying in the same place, it’s useless

No matter how hard I try to bury all the things left

Then it would be left in my heart still

The place where our memories exist in every single corner,

How come I erase all of them? The fact is erasing them is just like memorizing something that never happens.

I must be crazy, time is still keeping on, but I am still here alone

With you running around my head, my mind, my heart,

I must be crazy!!!

And if I don’t go away soon, I can be a real mad.

Love is that pain, no matter how hard I am saying to myself,

“You can do this!! Just work from morning until night! Just go travelling and be happy!! Just laugh as much as you can with your friends, go everywhere you want!!!”

Every morning once I wake up, I would say,

“Good Morning, myself! Look, life is so incredible!! What are you doing today??? Oke good, you are so busyyy, you are good, good job!!!”

Then I would go working. I would go back at night, go to bath with hot water mixed with salt,

I am so ok back then.. I am so ok...

But the problem coming up when I do nothing for the whole day like todays. I just lay down on my bed while watching the movies, or reading books, or just do nothing!

What else do I have to think about then??

You keep on popping up in my mind. I want to call you to listen to your voice, but I dont want to. I want to text you and ask 'how's life?', but I dont want to. I want to meet, ash.....I think we will never meet each other again. 

In one day, I think I can get over you. And in another day, I just feel you were the one I have ever loved the most for such a long time. You knew me, almost all about me. You were the closest male human I've ever had. You.....

Ok fine, you even pass by in my mind when I work, and now you stay in my mind. And you appear everyday.

I have nothing to do. It is because I have nothing to do. I shoud go back working, find out the activities so I can go around all the day.

Not only working, I have to open up my grand new life in the new place. It is useless if I keep busy in the same place where we used to spend the day together for years.

Now I am on fire to leave this place. You were once my motivation to keep on moving forward and be the best as possible, and you are even my motivation to go out of the safe box in order to move on....from you. What an amazing you.

I hope nothing from you. I just hope to be busy, to work as soon as possible in far far away, to start a new page by my own, to.....move on.

I’m sure I can do it!! I can!!! Fightiiiiing!!!!!