14.01.2012

When we love someone, we always want that person feel comfortable with us. And I am always debating inside. Did I do something wrong? I always act as what I am thinking about. Eventhough it is not  the reality, I keep acting as what’s inside did happen. And mostly of them are bad thoughts. And I myself feel so stressed out. Then “Did I do something wrong?” seems going around in my head. 

I’m not someone who can easily express what I feel. If I miss someone, I cannot easily say that. I just don’t want to say that. I just want him to know without being told by me about how much I miss. But then, human is just human. He cannot read my mind, he cannot listen the sound inside. Maybe he doesn’t believe in me. I have got through all the past and just let the past be the past. My past is something I can learn from, but there is nothing to do with that when I love you. The past is just the past, I left all the things behind. There is no love left for the past. My love is for someone appearing in my present and I hope it will be my future.

Maybe he doubts me, then I don’t know how to do to convince. I’m not good at it. I’m not good at loving someone. But then, I am really falling in love, hope you haven’t fallen out of love already.

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